Today was one of those days. It was an off day for me. Started with Hannah whining at breakfast that her eggs were still too hot even though they were fine and EVERYONE else at the table was eating them as they were. It was just one of those days when I just wanted SPACE. I didn't want anyone to climb on me, I didn't want to read books, I didn't want to listen to the kids fighting. I just wanted them to GO AWAY from me and go PLAY. But that doesn't really happen. Only if I've asked them to clean it, then they play. Or if it's almost bedtime and we've run out of time for the day, then they want to play. Why is that anyway?? Finally after lunch I snapped. Carter banged me in the head with his forehead. He was just trying for us to put our heads together and look in each others eyes like we do sometimes. But it happened to nail me in the EXACT SPOT I got hit in the head yesterday with a car seat buckle during installation, and that hurt like words I'm not allowed to say. I pressed my hand into my forehead and just went upstairs to cry. I get hurt from the car seat, and now I got hurt again from Carter's head. It really wasn't as big of a deal as it felt in the moment, it just hit me (literally) at the wrong moment when I was already fried emotionally. Moms are allowed to have meltdowns sometimes, too right? I laid on the bed crying for a minute and then returned downstairs to the kids. Got them down for nap and just chilled out the rest of the afternoon feeling quite crummy. Why does crying have to drain so much out of you?? I watched one of my shows and then took a nap. Had some of my favorite soup for dinner and watched a movie with the kids before bedtime. Blah. I hate grumpy days. Praying tomorrow is better...
hey Sarah! Sorry about your bummer day, we ALL have them! I applaud you for walking away and crying instead of snapping or yelling at the kids like I have been known to do! Giving yourself a time out is sometimes the best thing to do! Hope tomorrow is a better day!
ReplyDeleteYou're certainly not alone. As Kathy said, I applaud you, too. More times than not I end up snapping at my kids, yelling at them, only to feel guilty on top of grumpy, making the day that much worse.
ReplyDeleteI hope today is better! Is your husband home today to maybe give you some time to yourself?
Praying for ya!
I agree with Kathy - go you! I would have snapped at my kids. You have such a gentle heart, my friend. It's ok to cry sometimes and it's ok for us to have those days. As long as it's not a continual thing, it happens. I love you!
ReplyDeleteI agree with everyone else! You are so good to have removed yourself from the situation. I usually just become a screaming idiot and then everyone starts crying and feeling badly! Hoping that this day goes better for you!
ReplyDeleteI agree that it was good to leave. What did you say upon your return? That may be the most important part of the lesson. Take time when you need it, but be sure to talk about it when you return so that your children (and maybe you?) learn how to deal with a situation like that, not just how to run away from it.
ReplyDeleteThis was my day yesterday. If I changed the name "Carter" to "Eden" I could copy the post to my blog:) Love you.
ReplyDeleteGood point, Anonymous. After just a couple minutes to collect myself somewhat, I did come back downstairs and simply told the kids that Carter banged me in the head in the EXACT spot I got hit with the car seat buckle the day before and it REALLY hurt. I said it wasn't his fault and I wasn't mad with any of them, it just HURT!
ReplyDeleteEmily, sorry you had that kind of day too!! LOVE YOU!!
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