2013 was a painful year for us. Struggle with sin, trust, faith, priorities, communication, hurt, anger, all of it. There's so much that can't be shared publicly or even privately. But it's our story, our LIFE, it's real.
I haven't been here because I didn't know what to say. I still don't really.
This journey is HARD. I am struggling to trust God. What exactly do I trust TO God??? He's all powerful but works in twisted ways that we don't understand at all. He may NEVER answer my prayers in the ways that *I* am pleading to Him . How do I trust and hope and pray for God to do plan A when I know so very well that He may have a Plan B in mind all along, that never even comes close to my desires?? So I am trying to simply Trust God. With the whole thing. And be okay with the possibility of Plan B. And to trust that Plan B can still be okay too and even possibly GOOD. And that, my friends, is hard. THAT is faith.
"Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done." Luke 22:42
Have you ever had to trust God with some really heavy circumstances? Trusting that the Plan B (which, by the way, was always God's plan from the start) is good too?
Oh yeah...that was 2012 for me and my family! I know how rough it is to be going through something so HUGE and not really be able to talk about, to only be able to hold on and have faith that God WILL make it all good. Things don't look the way I planned them, and they didn't progress on my timeline, but all was worked out for good. He did for me, and He will for you. Keep holding on!
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for saying that, Kassandra!!
ReplyDeleteOh friend, I will be praying for you! I know you've had some struggles in the past you've been open about and I pray these aren't continuing. I know that the unknown is sometimes the hardest because God's ways are far removed from our own. And we want our way! I know I do. I'm praying!
ReplyDeleteIt is HARD, for sure. All I can say is I would rather trust God for all the unknowns, than walk away from Him and live my life without HIM in it ... to me that would be FAR scarier. Praying for you Sarah!! <3
ReplyDeleteFor I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11
ReplyDeleteI immediately though of this verse when I read your post. You may not know the purpose of what you are facing, and you may not know what God's plan is, but know that he is GOOD. So are his plans.
Even in the wilderness, miracles happened. Don't forget to look for them.
Hang tough, sister. I love you and am lifting you up.