Now that I've recognized that Facebook is something of an idol to me, I thought I could just set rules for myself, BE more self-controlled, and conquer this battle on my own. I'm a list-writer, goal-setter, rule-maker, and I want to be able to do this on my own.
But the truth is, I can't.
Seems so silly, really. I can't get over how something as simple as a social network can really be that dominating over my life. And I hate saying that out loud, but at the same time I'm going to be honest with myself and you.
When it comes to confronting idols, we need a greater Help. Ask God to take this from you and rely on HIM.
"Having freedom from our idols begins by recognizing our own powerlessness against them. Apart from the power of Christ, we are unable to extricate ourselves from their hold. This is good news if we can accept the truth of our own weakness while accepting the gift of His strength. He will do it." - Kelly Minter, No Other Gods
2 Corinthians 1:9 This happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God, who raises the dead.
And by the way, I do still have "rules" for myself I still haven't yet committed to following:
* Computer checks only in the morning, nap time, and after kids are bed.
* No checking on my phone while watching a movie with Kevin. Avoid temptation by plugging in my phone in another room instead of leaving my phone sit right next to me on the couch.
But this time, I'm not relying on my own power, I'm relying on God's power to take this from me.
Father, you know my heart and my desires. The need to be there for everyone. To tell them they matter. It is a gift. But take from me the constant "need to know" feeling. Help me to desire the things YOU want for me. Help me to have self-control and wisdom over my time, that all I do would honor you. Amen.